when the question popped into my head, i took the core "Education" outta me and now the core me was empty.. i knew i had to put the core "God" into me.. but somehow or rather.. i didnt.. and i dragged this for 1.5 years.. 1.5 years worth of memories is alot... now without a core in me.. im practically floating around life.. juz floating.. having no objectives in life.. so that oso explains me being nostalgic for a longer period of time compared to the me last time.. the impact came so strongly that there was not enuff time for me to recover.. not enuff time for me to clear the fog in front of me.. so all these while.. i've been lost in this "fog".. this seemingly endless "fog".. afraid that this fog might nv clear.. or that i might not be able to steer clear of this "fog".. i soon started conjuring my own conclusions and tots along the way.. which only made things worse.. made me go deeper into the "fog"..

another simplier analogy would be im like stuck in a balloon.. but no matter how hard i try to burst the balloon.. no matter how hard i try to puncture the walls of the balloon.. my efforts were futile.. the walls of the balloon was simply too thick for me to puncture.. y puncture the balloon? the real world is outside the balloon im in.. but now.. im stuck in this balloon.. stuck in virtuality.. and its hurting me indirectly.. my real world is constantly being affected the very moment i got myself into this balloon..

but now.. the recent events that occured in the real world gave me the aid i needed.. gave me the extra boost that i really could use of.. to burst the walls of the balloon.. im able to enter the real world once again.. and this time.. i had an objective in mind.. that is to put the core "God" into my core system..

tricky eh?

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