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Wednesday, October 11, 2006

ok... today isnt exactly a day i would like history to repeat... well... who ever likes to go thru the trauma of having to receive ur utterly poor results twice... as if once isnt bad enuff... well... bio had to spoil my day 1st thing in the morning... getting a U isnt exactly fun... especially when it determines ur future... darn... wad the freak... retaining might well be wad i m gonna face... dratz... and going thru another yr of JC1 will juz simply mean wasting another yr of my life... wad good would i be from a poly or MI student? (not discriminating...) wel... really din expect sj to be passing his bio with flying colours... i mean... LOL... haha... the next paper that really shook me was the fact that i actually failed econs... which is apparently my H1 subject... crap... as if thats not bad enuff... i had juz won myself a spot at the top of my class ranking for econs... only it starts at the bottom... lol... grr... 20/50??? i mean... haiz.. i reaped wad i sowed... who else can i blame besides me, myself and I? rite... well... the next paper was rather relieving... got an A for my overall maths... tho my aim was to top the class... haha... haiz... wish i could turn back time and bask in the glory of being some maths pro... haha!! ok... this is so arrogant... haha... but i mean... i really like maths... well... it used to be my sole passion in sec skool... which accounts for the high grades i attained... haiz... hope things change for the better soon... well... these are the papers we got back today... tml's gonna be another round of ups and downs again... but most probably downs... yea... heard from sj that his friend (who is in SAJC) din do well for their promos... well... i guess i shouldnt be too happy even if i get excellent grades here... i mean... TPJC and SAJC... FAR cry... wonder how MO, CK, Iven, etc are doing at SAJC... hmm... well.. juz hope they did well...

well... today was very slack... cos basically the teachers were juz handing out the papers to be checked without going thru the answers... yea... and there were so many breaks today... not to mention the breaks were long, longer than our usual breaks... played bball with the class guys... yea... it'll be such a sad thing if i really retained (CHOY!) and wouldnt get to play bball with these guys again... i mean at least they play sports instead of juz study and study... lol... oh ya... i've gotta blog bout this... grr... today... when it was my turn at the malay stall, the lady told me there wasnt any rice left... dammit!! and im pissed at the fact that im not only famished but also becos it had to be at my turn... and apparently MK and i queued in vain... grr... went round to check the other stalls... no more rice... i mean... WTF? no rice? were the stall vendors like expecting a small crowd today? in the end... we had to settle for fishball noodles... and we had to like hasten our eating cos we were late for the next lesson... or rather period... yea... another pissing fact was that the distributing of econs paper only took up a few minutes.. and we were allowed to leave thereafter... which meant that MK and I ate in such a hurry manner for nothing... argh...

ok... so i got a bday gift from george, mk and nic... of which im not gonna reveal... cos i dun wanna humiliate myself... lol!! but i thank them for saving me the trouble to go get the stuff... lol.. and sparing me of the embarrassment of having to ask my dad for the thing... but i dunno how to use it... lol... haha... oh ya.. MK... how's ur lovey-duvey bolster and pillow... HAHA!! nice one, george and nic... :D

hmm... i wonder when will odac and table tennis resume... lol... have only gone for one table tennis training so far... and u can say odac has had only 1 training too... grr... i'd rather wear the CJC odac shirt... but i guess im not fit too... i mean... literally as well... haha...

anw... gonna take my vaccination in light of the upcoming OCIP trip to Cambodia... yup... cant imagine me taking two injections on the same day... OUCH!! never liked needles... especially when it's gonna be poked into ur flesh... muz rmb to bring health booklet...

for now... im gonna focus on chinese and pw... and not let my mind get distracted with any other matters... musnt let wad happened to my promos happen to my A levels chinese as well as PW... cant take the risk now... wont wanna bear the pain...

haiz... i noe wad exactly caused my downfall... it's me giving up life and losing the drive for life... after a stupid question popped into my mind... i noe it may sound dumb or trivial to u... but this has had impacted my life so great an extent that i have completely undergone a 360 degree change... even i can feel it... and one of the adverse side effects is me declining in my schoolwork... have always tried to search for the formula to living life to the fullest... but my answer never came... till this day... and coupled with the fact that i have always been heavily burdened by this question " How am i to strike a balance between God and meeting the never-ending demands of the world? Where do i draw the line? "... I seriously need any bit of enlightenment i can gather...

haha... tuesday was fun... celebrated MK and amanda's bday tgt... yup... double the fun... haha! went to george's place to have a bbq... had a massive food fight... lol... now that's fun... haha... initially it started out as charcoal "painting"... then it evolved to smearing of cake la... margarine la... and even satay sauce... (peter... sounds familiar? haha...) and everyone got their own little "shower" compliment from everyone... haha... darn... i could feel the water collecting at my underwear la!! thanx to nic... lol... after that... it started to rain... heavily... tat was juz when ms chua arrived at the scene... lol... we den went to george's hse where we played this game Zong1 Zi2 mi4 mah3 (lol... i dunno whether the hanyu pinyin correct not) yea.. and the person who forfeited gets his/her arms drawn with markers... yup... lol... im juz so lucky to be the 1st guinea pig... haha! but it was fun tho... yep... i should consider myself quite lucky alr cos the people sitting beside me were wynne and cheryl... haha... after playing till like 10.15pm... we decided to go home... yup... haha.. all in all... it was a rather fun day... juz tat no one got dunked into the pool... crap... especially MK and amanda.. haha!! anw.. we were alr like drenched to the skin due to the downpour... yea...

ok damn! i've been spending like the past hour or more trying to upload the photos... grr... wads wrong?!?! anw... thanx to those who introed me photobucket... which made life so so much easier... wah...

alritez... here's the photos that i took, or rather michelle (my photographer!! haha...) during the bbq... here goes :

j0hN =) {6:18 PM}